Confessions of an Obsessing Mind

I woke up at 5 am to see the time and saw the date..today is the 25th...its like almost a month since the BREAKUP...i suddenly felt very sick...I just couldnt understand the deeper meaning to it....why am I like this?Why can't I forget?Surely this is not the end to the r elationship?I always felt it would last for a very, very long time. He has cut me off completely. I tried to call him last friday, he didnt even answer...then I tried his office number..had some luck with that..at least he didnt slam it..just said a hi...I really need to rush, I wanted to call back, but just tooo busy, I'm just letting things be for the moment and bye...tht's it...lasted for a whole minute i think..Well, I certainly havent got him out of my system...every hour, everyday,every week....yearning, longing, obsessing about what hes doing, who is he with...but there is a limit to what I can do...I do not have the powers to read his mind or control his feelings. I do not know why God is putting me through this....if this relationship is meant to end here, at least He should help me in ending it and moving on..which He is not doing...everyday He reminds me and everyday He makes me realise that there was none better than him..all I can think of is how to get him back and when he is coming back, waiting for some kind of miracle to happen..because I dont believe this is the end..it can't be.God help me.